Monday, December 30, 2013

Jesus and the sinners

As many of you know We are being persecuted for our faith in Christianity and for raising our voice against the cruel and those in power.

We were kept in detention and deprived of all we had including our passports. We have spent 1 long year on the run. Separated from our mother we continue to live in extreme fear.
We kept on begging UNHCR and the whole world to protect us as we are the victim of people in authority.
We wrote to many Christian organizations including Human rights no help was extended.

In a hyper desperate attempt to get help I cut myself in a live You tube video as a protest against our persecution…. 
I received loads of messages condemning me and calling me a sinner. “You are out from Christianity” many told me.
I wonder at the double standard of the West.
What about your teenage daughters?  Who leave the house to live with a boyfriend and get pregnant? Is it allowed to have children out of the bond of marriage in Christianity?

Our problem is we judge ourselves by our ideas and others by their deeds. Its so easy to have beautiful ideas but difficult to face life when it turns on you.
Let’s see What Bible says,

Matthew 7
7‘Do not judge, so that you may not be judged. 2For with the judgement you make you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get. 3Why do you see the speck in your neighbour’s* eye, but do not notice the log in your own eye? 4Or how can you say to your neighbour,* “Let me take the speck out of your eye”, while the log is in your own eye?5You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbour’s* eye.

Let me remind You how Lord Jesus even showed mercy to an adulteress woman who was chosen to be stunned by the people.

John 8:1-11
At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11 “No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”
Jesus who was never touched by the Satan sat with the sinners and dined with them.
 Matthew 9: 9 - 13; 
9 As Jesus passed on from there, He saw a man named Matthew sitting at the tax office. And He said to him, "Follow Me." So he arose and followed Him. 10 Now it happened, as Jesus sat at the table in the house, that behold, many tax collectors and sinners came and sat down with Him and His disciples. 11 And when the Pharisees saw it, they said to His disciples, "Why does your Teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?" 12When Jesus heard that, He said to them, "Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. 13 "But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy and not sacrifice.' For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance." 
That’s not all Jesus Christ was even kind and friendly to the prostitutes. He let them to touch his sacred body and showed kindness to them
According to the New Testament Bible, Jesus did talk to prostitutes. He had compassion on them because they were trapped in sin (in wrongdoing).. He loved all sinners, including prostitutes.
Luke 7:36-50.
36 Then one of the Pharisees asked Him to eat with him. And He went to the Pharisee’s house, and sat down to eat. 37 And behold, a woman in the city who was a sinner, when she knew that Jesussat at the table in the Pharisee’s house, brought an alabaster flask of fragrant oil, 38 and stood at His feet behind Him weeping; and she began to wash His feet with her tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head; and she kissed His feet and anointed them with the fragrant oil. 39 Now when the Pharisee who had invited Him saw this, he spoke to himself, saying, “This Man, if He were a prophet, would know who and what manner of woman this is who is touching Him, for she is a sinner.”
40 And Jesus answered and said to him, “Simon, I have something to say to you.”
So he said, “Teacher, say it.”
41 “There was a certain creditor who had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. 42 And when they had nothing with which to repay, he freely forgave them both. Tell Me, therefore, which of them will love him more?”
43 Simon answered and said, “I suppose the one whom he forgave more.”
And He said to him, “You have rightly judged.” 44 Then He turned to the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave Me no water for My feet, but she has washed My feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head. 45 You gave Me no kiss, but this woman has not ceased to kiss My feet since the time I came in. 46 You did not anoint My head with oil, but this woman has anointed My feet with fragrant oil.47 Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little.”
48 Then He said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
Last but not the least if we don’t try to raise our voice against our powerful enemies one day we will be caught and then nobody would ever know how we were disgraced raped and cut in to pieces.
We must think twice before slandering someone, especially those who are being persecuted like us. We need your love and support not condemnations.
Happy New Year

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Merry Christmas

Praise to God we have thousands of supporters around the world.

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Sunday, December 15, 2013

There is still hope if your loved one is in a comma for years

Woman wakes after 16 years

Patricia Whilte Bull

Patricia White Bull cures touched by Jesus When God wills!

A woman regained full consciousness on Christmas Eve December 1999 after 16 years in a coma.

Patricia White Bull, 42, slipped into a comma while giving birth to her fourth child at a hospital in New Mexico, US.

Since then she has been unable to speak, swallow or move much.

But on Christmas Eve she suddenly snapped back into consciousness, telling staff who were trying to fix her nursing home bed: "Don't do that." 

May this Christmas bring more joy and happiness and many beautiful surprises to everyone and specially to those who have suffered pain.... Love!

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Pakistani Christian family persecution in sri Lanka

November 6, 2013|8:16 pm

A Pakistani Christian family currently in hiding and living in poor condition in Sri Lanka are pleading with the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees to grant them refugee status, as they fear they might be killed if they are brought back to Pakistan.
"We need help," 29-year old Sadia Khan directly stated to The Christian Post in a phone interview on Tuesday. "We are now seven months in hiding."
Khan, along with her 11-year-old sister Amala, and their mother, converted to Christianity in Pakistan several years ago. She then began writing a book about terrorism, and according to investigative work she carried out, she found out that allegedly several Pakistani generals and security officials have been supportive of terrorist activities.
The Christian family fled to Sri Lanka in January 2012 after fearing their lives might be in danger, and Sadia was accused of being a spy for India by the Sri Lankan government, who reported her in every police station as a wanted high profile criminal. In Sri Lanka, however, they were held under detention for a month, and had their passports and other possessions confiscated.
In April, they left detention and have been in hiding in Sri Lanka ever since, afraid that they might face the death penalty if brought back to Pakistan.
"After seven months of exhausting hiding my mother left us and once again begged UNHCR to give us asylum," Khan explained to CP.
"She came back empty handed to the empty house which we had left due to the fear of being caught. Now separated from our mother we live in a different location and everyday fear death."

The family hope that UNHCR will finally take up their cause and help them find asylum, but so far they say they haven't received much hope that the international agency will take action.
"We are so helpless, I can't explain (how much.) Can you imagine, two governments are after us," Khan concluded.
The sisters have written about their ordeal on several blogs, hoping to raise awareness for their cause and get the U.N.'s attention.

Google + community with over 250 members has also been set up in their support under the title "Save the Life of Two Blogger Sisters."

"If we get arrested they will definitely kill us as they do not have any proof against us. They will not hold any trial against us, as UNHCR, human rights groups, including Amnesty International, know about these charges and will follow the trial. Sri Lankan authorities will secretly kill us as they cannot prove anything against us," Sadia Khan wrote in a letter addressed to Pakistani Prime Minister Nawaz Sharif and Chief Of Army Staff Ashfaq Parvez Kayani.

Persecution watchdog group Open Doors ranked Pakistan at number 14 on their 2013 World Watch List of worst persecutors of Christians.

"Christians are caught between Islamic militant organizations, an Islamizing culture and a weak government with a military complicit in fuelling Islamic militants," Open Doors wrote about Pakistan, and brought up other cases of blasphemy that are often used to try and suppress religious freedom.

"Many persecuted Christians are uneducated manual workers who suffer unfair treatment from employers. Muslim men continue to sexually assault underage Christian girls. Opening a new church building is virtually impossible and emigration of Christians continues."

Friday, November 15, 2013

Brief story of Pakistani blogger trapped in Sri lanka by Pakistan

We converted to Christianity.

I was writing a book on terrorism, some people who came to know about this wanted to kill me. I fled to Sri Lanka along with my mother and my little sister on 1st January 2012.

We got registered with UNHCR.

I wrote about sensitive issues involving Pakistan security forces on my website with an anonymous name of Khizra and remained safe for 1 year.

Over estimating the protection of UNHCR in 2013 I started writing with my own name and disclosed everything about myself.

Pakistan ISI immediately contacted friendly Sri lankan Government to trap us.

They kept us in illegal detention for 1 month.

We came to know that SIS head and CID special team was investigating about us.
I was declared an Indian spy.

Our passports and everything we had was confiscated
We fled from the detention center and ever since live in hiding
UNHCR refused to give us asylum as Sr Lankan Government declared me a criminal.

We are enlisted in all the police Stations in Sri Lanka as wanted high profile criminals.

I wrote an open letter to President of Sri Lanka and the chief Justice of Sri Lanka to help me but to no avail.

After fleeing from the detention I contacted Pakistan High commission and ask them to help me.

They agreed with me that I was innocent and wanted to help me. They contacted the higher authorities in Pakistan who refused to forgive me.

After that Pakistan High Commission only tried to convince me to pay a visit to the Embassy they also tried to trace my location but due to the use of Blackberry could not trace me

We started a campaign on social media (google plus facebook) to save our life and have many supporters all over the world.

During this time we kept begging UNHCR to give us asylum but they refused due to the Sri Lankan Government involvement.

I wrote to Sri Lankan newspapers but they were too scared to publish my story.

I wrote an open letter in Pakistan daily times to General Kayani and PM Nawaz Sharif to help me but to no avail. It got published in September 30, 20 13 but was later removed from the internet.,

In a desperate effort to save our life I cut my self very badly and put it on YouTube, no one helped.

My mother left from hiding and went to UNHCR to beg them once again to have mercy on us and save our life. We left the place due to the fear of authorities. that was the last time we saw her. 

Now We are extremely exhausted with 7 months of hiding and with the fruitless efforts to live....
Finally Our night mare came to an end, On November 27, 2013 UNHCR  gave me asylum. 3 months later my mother and my little sister also got refugee status.
We are still in Sri Lanka and want to move to our new country as soon as possible.

Monday, November 11, 2013



Friday, October 25, 2013


Brief summary
 I was writing about very sensitive issues involving Pakistan security forces in Pakistan. Due to the threat to my life I fled to Sri Lanka along with my Mom and minor sister. I got registered with UNHCR. Overestimating the protection of UNHCR I started writing with my own name and disclosed my location.
Pakistani authorities contacted Sri Lankan Authorities and within days we were in detention camp. They confiscated everything including our passports.
I was told,
I am declared an Indian Spy
SIS head and special CID team was investigating about me
Our house was sealed
After one month of detention we fled on the 9th of April 2013.
We are in hiding for the last 7 months and it continues. WE kept begging UNHCR to give us asylum but to no avail.

On 14th October 2013 our mother exhausted with hiding left for UNHCR to beg them personally to give us asylum.  Me and my minor sister left for another place due to the suspicious role of UNHCR in the past.
What happened next?

My mother begged UNHCR to come and check the building where an alleged spy of India (myself) A wanted criminal enlisted with all the police stations had lived in heart wrenching conditions for the almost 7 months.  We were expecting Sri Lankan authorities and UNHCR to come running to find the truth about us but as soon as they found out that me and my sister have left the place. They lost the interest. Nobody came to check the place and talk to our owner and neighbors to find out about us. (Of course they knew I was innocent)
My mother was not offered asylum. My mother who did not have any money with her was forced to return to her place from where we had already left.
As a rule of law she should have been taken to a women in need center or to the detention camp as she had neither her passport nor UNHCR stay permit with her.
My mother went to the police station and requested them to take her to the detention camp because she neither had us in the house nor had any money. She was refused by the police Immigration and UNHCR to go to a place where she can at least get food. This is a dirty trick of UNHCR and Sri Lanka to force me to help my mother so that they can catch me.
While separating from her I did not give her any money hoping she will be taken care of.

Next day my mother was called for a so called interview with UNHCR. Violating, the basic rules of UNHCR she was further told,
“We cannot help you if you have problems with the state”
My mother was very disappointed with the interview and when she came out from the UNHCR building she was crying and screaming. UNHCR contacted Sri Lankan authorities and they contacted Pakistan Embassy. Soon a Pakistani official came to the place and stopped my mother from holding any kind of protest in a very strict way. He threatened her that if she will do so Sri Lankan authorities will break her bones……
Now we are separated from our mother. Our mother has lost everything including us.
Pakistan and Sri Lanka want to take my life and the saddest fact is UNHCR is helping them… UNHCR wants its office in Sri Lanka to go on and is ready to sacrifice us.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013


Dear Sir,

I Sadia Khan wrote on sensitive Human rights issues involving Pak Army Generals and security forces of Pakistan. Due to the threat to my life I fled to Sri Lanka along with my minor sister and mother. I got registered with UNHCR.

Pakistan ISI who was long looking for me finally trapped me in Sri Lanka. Pakistan friendly Sri Lankan authorities kept us in illegal detention for one month. They confiscated our passports and all we had.

We came to know through some honest officers that,

We were being involved in made-up cases
SIS head was leading our case
CID special unit was investigating about us
Our house was sealed
I will be declared a spy of India.

We kept UNHCR updated with our dangerous situation. We were told that if we have a problem with Sri Lankan State UNHCR cannot help us.

Due to extreme fear I had a heart attack. Hospital authorities were informed that I am a spy and I was guarded by heavily armed police in the hospital.

After returning to detention camp, we managed to flee from there on the 9th of April 2013.

Ever since we live in hiding while CID and all the service units of Sri Lanka are looking for us.
After 6 months of hiding my exhausted mother finally got back to UNHCR to beg them to grant us immediate asylum.
We separated from our mother and fled to another city to avoid being traced.
UNHCR staff acted in a very unprofessional and biased and suspicious way,

My mother was not issued a UNHCR stay Permit
UNHCR staff refused to send her to women in need center though she is all alone without a passport and separated from us. It is a dirty trick to force me to come and help her so that Sri Lankan authorities can arrest me.
She was told that they cannot help us if we had problems with the State authorities.

Now separated from our mother me and my little sister continue to live in hiding in extreme fear.
If we are caught Sri Lankan Authorities will kill us secretly to avoid any embarrassment
Please take an immediate action to save our life.

Sadia Khan


Thursday, October 3, 2013

Naazneen Khan wants to save my life as well and her own

Guest Post, 
Written by Naazneen Khan
Dear all,

During last two days I received a large number of private messages suggesting me to be careful and not to put my own life in danger.  I am thankful to all of you worried for my safety.  Please be informed that I am very careful and have taken precautionary steps to continue my campaign to save Sadia as well as to keep myself safe.

I am in touch with Sadia on internet and Google video chats. In case Sri Lankan special forces arrest her she will be killed along with her family to avoid any trials. They would also ask her about my identity and location.
She doesn’t  know my location neither she knows me personally that’s what will keep me safe and sound.
Sadia has removed her website and sent it to me as well as to 2 other bloggers in the west.
In case we loose our contact with her and she stops coming on the video chats, I will put her website on the internet and let people know that this is the website which took 3 innocent lives. I hope this doesn’t happen and God finds a better way and things get settled without bringing bad name to Pakistan and Sri Lanka and a peace loving blogger is allowed to live.

With love,

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Minutes of meeting with UNHCR and Sri Lanka by an Asylum Seeker

Inside UNHCR and Sri Lanka
A must read for all those who are facing persecution in their country and are planning to seek Asylum.

I was writing a book on terrorism in Pakistan. According to my field work and findings Pakistan ISI was supporting terrorists at a very large scale. They were being used as civilian army to fulfill their political dream of bringing Khilafat to Pakistan.. Upon receiving serious threat to our life we fled to Sri Lanka on 1st January 2012.

Unable to publish my book, I started my website and started writing about very sensitive human rights issues mainly involving Pakistan Security forces. Pakistan did not like it.

After a few days we went and got registered with UNHCR Colombo.

UNHCR staff member a translator met us in Macdonald’s Clolpetia  and told us that we should go back to Pakistan as UNHCR will not give us asylum.

We were very upset and I posted that on UNHCR Facebook.
I talked to a protection officer Tanga about it. She was alarmed she took a promise from me that I would not talk about it.

Our interview with UNHCR was delayed for a very long time.
Finally we were called for an interview after a year.

Interview was exactly the opposite of what I was expecting from UNHCR.

However the translator lady once the harbinger of a bad news was very professional and the one conducting the interview was just the opposite.

She was shouting, no eye contact no judgement skills above all not really interested. She asked me about my unpublished book on terrorism, I told her it’s in my Google Docs, she did not ask me to produce it though I could have done it right there, yet made it my failure point that I did not show her the book.
Her last question
“where were you living in Pakistan ” was very disappointing. 
After this interview UNHCR failed us.

I knew ISI would not spare me and my family and would kill us if we are sent back to Pakistan.

Horrified I started contacting UNHCR and through many emails I tried to explain my highly precarious situation.

My church Brother arranged a lawyer for me for my appeal against the initial decision of UNHCR.
However after listening to my story and going through my blog the lawyer looked visibly upset, perhaps he found it hard to help a girl who has written extensively about Sri Lankan friendly Pakistan Security forces.

We started receiving wrong calls. I was followed on the road. I knew I was exposed. Now No need to hide my identity, I started blogging with my own name.

 We went to women in need center and asked for shelter, they agreed but later changed their mind after speaking to UNHCR staff.

They were told by UNHCR Colombo in advance that we were failed with UNHCR though I had just filed an appeal against the initial decision of the UNHCR.

I called the senior protection officer MR. Gregory Balke he got very upset and kept telling me that it was very wrong to call him on his cell. He said ‘”You will be called to the office for an interview or for other reasons” it was an indication that we might not get a chance for an appeal interview and will be called to receive another failure decision.

I Started Looking for options to stay in Sri Lanka.

On Saturday 9th March 2013 a bunch of immigration officers around 20 of them came to our rented house in Colombo.
They were banging and kicking on the door and threatened to break the door open. They had no lady officer with them and had no right to enter in a house with no male family members in it.

We did not open the door, instead took our documents and money and taking a risk for our life jumped from the 2nd floor balcony in to the neighbor’s house. We went to another city Kandy.

We stayed there for few days and kept calling UNHCR.
UNHCR protection officer told me

 “Do not do a drama come back to your home. you are registered with UNHCR, immigration cannot touch you”

As told we came back and were very much touched.We were arrested by the help of the well briefed taxi drivers present there and a traffic police man. I fell down crowd present there touched me all over. Someone pulled my heavy gold chain.

Immigration officers arrived very late and took us to Dahi wala police station.

They kept joking with each other about our earlier escape.
Police officials present there looked very sympathetic to us. They kept telling us that we have no problem with us. It is immigration matter and they can’t interfere.

 We were taken to Mirihana detention center. 
An officer shouted at me
 “you give our information to India.’’ I was shocked I don’t know a single person from India I am a stranger in Sri Lanka with zero knowledge of their places and language what was he talking about.

Mr Amit Prerara of immigration took our passports and UNHCR stay permit letter. What happened to our valuables and all we had at home still remains unanswered.

When he walked away with our passports in his hands, my heart sank.

I called UNHCR .They were hiding.

 It was UNHCR staff who persuaded us to come back to our home. I lost all my trust in them. 

UNHCR was neither answering my emails nor my calls.
We were told by an officer in the Detention center that deportation case is being filed against us To my horror I came to know that we were being involved in madeup cases.

We were told by the immigration officials and Detention camp staff,

“ISI Head contacted Sri Lankan intelligence Head about You

Siri Laankan intelligence  Head is investigating about you
CID special team is involved in your case”

We were accused of being spies of India.

Secretary Defence Gotabhaya Rajapaksa 

I was scared to death and had a minor heart attack. I stayed in the hospital for four days.

I called UNHCR Geneva from the hospital and spoke to the official responsible for Sri Lanka. He spoke to me very kindly and promised me that he will talk to UNHCR Colombo.

The next day when I called him he had already spoken to UNHCR Colombo, he banged the phone on me.

I did not give up and tried to explain through my emails and phone calls to Geneva UNHCR that they should decide my case by themselves as Sri Lankan Government was directly involved in my case and UNHCR local staff was under great pressure. 

I started calling Human rights organizations for Refugees in Sri Lanka, all of them told me they were only working for internally displaced people.

A doctor in the hospital told me that they have been told that I am a spy and should be discharged as soon as possible.

I called Brother Andrew and asked for his help. He said, "Police came to my house to know about you, now you have been declared  a criminal and it’s a crime to help criminals”

My ECG report was not clear, and with hyper cholesterol level I was sent back to the detention center. My Eco report was withheld.

We stayed in the illegal detention for one month as if UNHCR did not exist.

Finally, out of three of us only I was called for an appeal interview.

The interviewer was under great stress. I came from the detention center but surprisingly the lady who was interviewing me was in no better condition than I was.

She told me that she will not record the interview, when I objected she agreed to make a recording.

She threw her 1st question which was very well prepared and had another set of multiple sub questions attached with it. She was supposed to ask me all these questions one by one but she chose to ask all of them in one go. I tried my best to answer the main question and the multiple attached questions, she was shouting, an argument started and she closed the recording machine for a while.

She was bent upon discussing my life in Pakistan while after coming to Sri Lanka threat to our life had increased many folds. She did not want to talk about the fact that Pakistani friendly Government of Sri Lanka has turned on us.

Horrified I spoke loudly about these genuine threats and requested UNHCR to protect us.

Her body language was of a helpless employee who knew that I was right but was asked to work on my failure.

In the end when the interview was over, she told me in a low tone.

I was told to go back to detention center. I refused and started crying very loudly but was forced to return.

I knew something very suspicious was going on.
I decided to flee from the detention center. I started going for early morning walks to be familiar with the place.
The area had hundreds of Police officials, It seemed impossible to flee from there but surprisingly police men were very friendly.

 It was not my smartness but their kindness that we 3 family members managed to get out from there. They clearly differentiated between criminals and fateful asylum seekers.
I love Sri Lankan Police.

In the beginning immigration officers were bent upon taking us to Boosa (jail) they were refused by the police department
As we left the detention center we went to a hotel to stay but I was extremely sick and was coughing very badly the hotel staff got very suspicious about us. We tricked them and left the hotel.

We went to Red Cross International office and asked for protection they refused to intervene with the big House (UNHCR) and advised us to go to UNHCR office which was closed by, We did not go there. We had no more trust in UNHCR Colombo.

We went from one place to another without knowing where we were going.

I kept calling UNHCR and kept updating them with our tender situation but they did not help.

UNHCR Geneva kept convincing me that we should go to UNHCR Colombo but we refused. We were once bitten a hundred times shy.

If we go there, they will give us the fail paper and call immigration officers secretly …….. So if there is no promise of asylum, there is no going to UNHCR.

Once we were physically attacked by a drunk house owner. We informed UNHCR nothing happened.

Another lady from UNHCR Geneva told me “’ your case is very complicated the decision can be positive as well as negative ‘’

After this I lost all my trust in UNHCR. I deleted all the articles written on sensitive issues. It was my work because of which UNHCR Google plus and Human rights watch Google plus and Unicef Google plus had added me to their limited friends circles but when I got trapped no one was there to help me. I remained in touch with Amnesty International UK and kept begging them to help me but to no avail.

Bottom line message I got from all these Human rights organizations was,

 “UNHCR is God we cannot interfere with them. They cannot make a mistake. If they do not accept you no one can save your life”.No body realized that UNHCR Sri Lanka staff was under pressure from their Government.

I was disappointed and due to extreme fear my weight went from 60 kg to 40 kg. My mother and my sister also lost lot of weight.

My little sister Amala who has amazing computer skills rose to the occasion. She told me that she will save us all. Now she is very active on the internet running a campaign to save our life.

Once again I started looking for options to stay in Sri Lanka.
I called Deputy Controller of Immigration; he immediately recognized me and asked about my location. I asked him whether he will return my passport if I send someone from my Church with authority letter, he said no. I further asked him if I get married to a foreigner will he return my passport so that I can leave Sri Lanka?... His answer was inhuman he said

“No, Why did you come to Sri Lanka”

Oh world tell me with nowhere to go, should we be buried alive?!

On Sunday September 1, 2013…. Another bomb shell fell on me. I was in touch with Mr Bandara Assistant Controller of immigration. I had earlier requested him to talk to authorities to give us asylum in Sri Lanka.
He told me,

“Special Forces are looking for you. Mr.Perera General Controller of immigration held a meeting with UNHCR Colombo on Wednesday in which Mr.Perera was clearly told by UNHCR that they are not granting you refugee status.”

He further told me,

“change Your  current location immediately  escape… escape.  this call must be getting traced. I will secretly give you your passports  run to India.”

I was horrified and had sudden pain in my chest. I became very sick. I am a patient of thyroid with heart problems. My little sister Amala called UNHCR Colombo and asked them what was going on. UNHCR had recently sent me n email informing me that my asylum decision has been taken and the information I will receive will be to my benefit. The big house failed to answer my 11 years old sister what conspiracy was being cooked between UNHCR and Sri Lankan authorities. All the human rights organizations including UNHCR know that we are in hiding for the last 5 months. We are walking dead with an alarming level of threat from Sri Lanka as we bleed they
choose to be silent spectators.

We are exhausted with hiding. My mother decided to go to UNHCR Colombo and beg them once more to protect us.  That was the last time we saw her. We were all crying as she left. She came back empty handed to the empty house. We left the place because of the fear of Sri Lankan authorities.
I bought a sharp knife and planned to stab myself in front of UNHCR.  Later I cancelled this as I thought That UNHCR will even then not help me.

I bought blades and cut myself in a live YouTube video. It was not to harm myself but to be known and to be helped. Nothing happened..

After few days UNHCR announced asylum for me.

It was 29th Noember 2014. By now I was exhausted with my struggles to live. I received an Email from Ilija Todorovic.  He was newly transferred to UNHCR Colombo. I had never heard of him. I called him. He informed me that he has granted Refugee status to me. I did not believe my ears and repeated his words. It was the happiest moment of my life.

Ilija Todorovic

On February 10 UNHCR finally gave asylum to my mother and my sister Amala also. It was again newly appointed Officer Ilija Todorovic who finally decided this case and did justice to us. I guess without him it was not possible. Our case was complicated, with 2 States Pakistan and Sri Lanka turned on us. UNHCR local staff was not powerful enough to say no to their Pakistan friendly Government.